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Sally

This post is dedicated to my dog sally. she was my first dog. we got her when i was about three and i was utterly afraid of her; when my dad came home she would go crazy and run around the house with excitement and i would stand on the top of our couch to hide. one night i began feeding ehr cheerios and that was the night that i got over my fear of dogs. she was the cutest thing in the world. she loved swimming; every once in awhile when visitors came or another excuse for the front door to open, she would bolt out and jump into our neightbors' pool. they'd call and ask if we were missing sally and we'd run over to get her. she was the dog who would jump up on everyone and go up and lick you like twenty times. she was so lively. She ate rocks too and then threw them up the next morning; those were her gifts of gratitiude to us, besides her tail wagging practically every moment one of us was around and her kisses and when she would jump on our beds in the morning, afternoon or night. when we blew bubbles when we were young, she'd think we were throwing balls for her to fetch, so she tried to catch in he mouth. she also played in the snow with us and jumped on our backs with all our snow gear on. we'd throw snow balls at her and she'd catch them. we just found out that sally has cancer that started in her spleen, then moved to her liver and now lungs. we have to decide when to put her down tonight. we have another dog, oscar, but we got him after sally, so obviously we would feel just as bad if he died but sally was our first. she was our 6th family member. when i wake up i know i'm gonna want to see her greet me at the stairs and i know i'm gonna want to hear her tail beating against the floor. i know i'm going to cry, i know im going to have to tell her story fifty more times. but, what will we do with our two dog beds and our two leashes and our two dog bowls and our two hearts? will we get a new dog? will i feel the same way about her/him as i did for sally?
But the worst thing is she's still sitting in our family room huffing and puffing.

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Summer School

So, today was my first day of summer school, and i'm taking health. i hate the feeling of going in and not knowing anyone and you don't know where to go and the teachers assume that you failed something, so they make an ass out of themselves. i hate this though i don't want to be thought of as an idiot, especially in school and what goes along with school is summer school. besides the fact that it's horrifyingly awkward the first day, it's horrifyingly annoying that you think to yourself why did i do this? i could have stayed up late to watch "sex and the city" with my friend, my sister, and lesbian, instead i went to bed at 11:30 (which is outrageous on a summer night) just to wake up and go to school. and i can take the class senior year! blah!!!! i feel stupid and all the kids think i'm a dork because i'm doing this because i wanted to not because i'm asian and it runs in my blood (i know awful stereotype) and not because my parents made me.

At Least Once

Wow i feel kinda stupid for putting up the post about cake without asking you, the few people who read this, what the worst this you've eaten in a day? so let that rest in your stomach acid and consider the following..... is the demand to be thin these days too high? or do you feel like taking fat pills to give yourself something to look at while working out instead of looking at the mirror and seeing your paunchy self? i'm so tired of it and when i eat something tasty now, i can't stop because i know i won't be able to eat it later. god, what i would do is to feel good about myself. i mena i fully appreciate like my friends and my parents telling me that i'm not fat or anything, but i would like to feel good about myself; i'd like to look at myself and be proud, actually want to go swimming, or buy clothing without having to think if it would hide my stomach. i think that's what everyone would like at least once in life.