Worst Season Ever.... contrary to popular belief

Knowing what I do doesn't matter is not the brightest or optimistic thing I could write about, but it's completely true. Nothing I do resembles anything helpful to this world.

School is the only place that allows me to feel important. Without it I'm lost and small. Even then, I'm belittled by my lackluster abilities. But at least I give somethng to the group and know that I've done something with my day's time.

Clearly, summer is the worst time of the year. My reasons being:

• I lose my momentum and become extremely lazy
• I feel lost in an endless time vat that I don't need, like losing a job and every minute after could be used into getting another one, but you're hot glued to the ground. Guilt every step
• People around me feel the same way but are farther along in life and it really is a waste not to be getting an internship, not to be working, not to be taking classes that matter. If they can't find stability, how can I?