Worst Season Ever.... contrary to popular belief

Knowing what I do doesn't matter is not the brightest or optimistic thing I could write about, but it's completely true. Nothing I do resembles anything helpful to this world.

School is the only place that allows me to feel important. Without it I'm lost and small. Even then, I'm belittled by my lackluster abilities. But at least I give somethng to the group and know that I've done something with my day's time.

Clearly, summer is the worst time of the year. My reasons being:

• I lose my momentum and become extremely lazy
• I feel lost in an endless time vat that I don't need, like losing a job and every minute after could be used into getting another one, but you're hot glued to the ground. Guilt every step
• People around me feel the same way but are farther along in life and it really is a waste not to be getting an internship, not to be working, not to be taking classes that matter. If they can't find stability, how can I?

'Me Learn Words are Sounds'

"Take a walk." what does that mean? I know, get up and use those things off your ankles called feet and apply your body's weight to them. Put one foot in front of the other. But how do the sounds "Teh-Ache" mean to receive or accept willingly? And how does "Ah" mean an article meaning one of something? And further more, how does "Way-keh"= to move about in a visible form? So when one is learning a new language and somethings don't translate, this comes into affect. And as Manfred Mann has already established; sometimes you can be blinded by the light.

Ok, I'm not ending it like that, but it's still miraculous how far we've come, language wise. I always imagine how it began; I imagine a round table of men with beards wrestling over how to say things. pointing to various objects and announcing random sounds from their congested throats [dripping with beer]. Oh, and of course, they're men, because if they were females then the french word for breast wouldn't be sein (pronounced sine. how boring is that and horribly sounding)